Sharing My Mess
90 Days of Prayer and Spiritual Intimacy with God
Ninety days of candid devotion — prayer, reflection, and the kind of honesty that makes intimacy with God possible.
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Books by Shani E. McIlwain
Three books for leaders and seekers doing the honest work. Books are $12, the Awkward Silence workbook is $25 — $5 flat shipping, free on orders of $75 or more.
Featured workbook
Awkward Silence
Practical Activities for White Ministry Leaders to Confront Anti-Racism
A workbook built for real rooms: activities, prompts, and honest conversation starters that move ministry teams from awkward silence into anti-racist practice.
$25
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It's Time to Make a Change
30 Days to Renew Your Mind, Heart and Soul
A thirty-day guide for anyone standing at the edge of a change they already know they need to make.
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Trainings
Awkward Silence trainings — virtual and in person
The workbook was built to be facilitated. Shani leads Awkward Silence trainings for ministry teams, boards, staff, and congregations — live online or on site with your people in the room.
- Virtual sessions for distributed teams and cohorts
- In-person workshops and retreats, traveling nationwide
- Workbook-based curriculum with bulk copies available
- Single sessions or multi-week series
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